“HOW I’VE GROWN AS A WRITER”

Throughout my school year here in West Adams, I have always had good grades I have never experience an F or a D…. well I have I’m not going to lie and it was only once in the 9th grade. The subject I failed was P.E. I know how lame right? I know that once you hit high school its all about getting good grades and truly its for our own good, you know to be someone successful in life. Someone I look up to is my sister she always encourages me to never give up. I really should listen to her because she has never given up. Why because she has never given up and there is proof for that she goes to SMC college and she works too. So far she has excellent grades and that’s something amazing to see.
I have grown to be a writer in this class for many reasons. Before I would write but I never used quotation marks and that just ruined a paper I started to notice that my writing was not efficient I wanted to make it better. Coming in this class improved me a lot. First I would never write essays because I was scared to, I mean I did but not good enough. When I realized that I was actually writing an essay I started thinking that I knew all of this and why was I bugging out on it. One thing that messed me up was the comas and quotes. Mr. Abraham helped me in that situation I had a teacher I had in 9th grade and coming into this class helped me even more. I have written a lot of essay’s in this class the thing I like about it is that you write the essay’s on the computer and put them in a blog where people can see them and give there advise on our essays which I think is a great way to make me and the whole class a better writer.
An essay I loved writing was the found poem. Now this poem was put in the blog for everyone to see. The thing I loved writing was how you had to choose a real nice poem and write your opinion about it. I choose Sonnet 30 by Edna St. Vincent Millay. I loved describing the poem. The poem was obviously passionate she talks about how love is not a game and how many men and women take it as a cure to their wounds also how she might not love a special someone but she realizes that its not worth losing love for someone that might love her back. The thing is that the poem is short but really descriptive. A thing I noticed was that I actually love to write poems I get really into them I guess I like to describe what I’m writing.
I also enjoyed writing the narrative with song lyrics the song I choose was an underground hip hop song by a group of guys that go by the name of atmosphere. I related a lot with this song that’s why I agreed to write about it. The title of the song is “fuck you Lucy.” Although it refers to a girl the lyrics say what happened to me and that’s why I like this song. Basically what this song talks about is how he use to know a girl but I guess the girl just wanted a friendship and not a relationship but the thing is that the girl showed emotions towards him which made him fall in love with Lucy and now she wants to come in to his life and be friends and he really doesn’t know if he should because of all the pain she has caused him. Everyone is telling him to be persistent. I really loved writing about this song it just hit me strong because everything it said had to do with my story. This of course made me a better writer because it gave me a better way to understand the meaning of describing what I’m writing about. It also gave me a better understanding in literary terms. I loved this class and I thank my teacher for making me a better writer.

stream of consciousness

Regularly my thoughts are full of dumb things. For example when I’m in class and if I like the subject I’ll listen other than that I always space out. I really don’t like doing that because sometimes I don’t get anything that teacher is talking the next day and that’s not a good thing. Usually the things I think about is what I’m going to wear the next day to school or what I’m going to do after school. Mainly the things are so retarded, but when I do think hardly I stay stuck in it and I hate doing that too. Now my friends always complain because I don’t listen to them when they are telling me things about their life’s but that is just with certain people.
Like my sister the one that is 14 years old, oh gosh she talks and talks and never seems to stop I mainly space out when she talks, truthfully because all she says is lies! Really she does. Well what I’m thinking right now is about wether my friend came to school or not. One of the things I have also been thinking about is this guy I don’t want to mention names or anything like that but well on Friday and the day before Friday which was Thursday he was wearing a suit I guess because he had a game so I decided to flirt a little and I called my friend since she has him for third I told her to tell him that said he looked cute. Well since I see my friend for fourth I asked her what he had said and well turned out he didn’t go to class.
Anyways the thing is that I don’t want him to think other things like me liking him or anything like that because I have a boyfriend that I really like. Well then on Friday my friends were pushing me in to talking to him. They got me a bit embarrassed but that was all. I think the guy is cute and all but I don’t see me with him probably I’m saying that cause right now I have a boyfriend but you never know right I mean I use to have him for 1st and he would always stare at me but never did nothing about it but then I got transferred to another class because I was going to the wrong one for three weeks oh gosh that was another thing I was a bit stressed out about they made me get out of that class which I had a good grade.
They made come in to a class that well I didn’t have anything at all so I had to start from scratch. Thankfully I completed it on time and I think I got an A. oh well back to that guy, I guess he had another friend of mine in his class and one day she came to me telling me that he wanted to talk to me and get to know me and well I decide to go for it and well we had a good talk but that was the last time I ever talked to him. Seriously my thoughts are from long time ago I just noticed that I guess I think about things from like three weeks ago I mean they say you shouldn’t think about the past but I seem to do that a lot. Yesterday was a lot of fun I went to yogurt land and I didn’t like it that much I rather go to pink berry now that is delicious. Some guys where eating and me and my sisters pass and we just waved at them they where so cute! You see my thoughts are so lame. That’s why when they ask what are you thinking about I say nothing because if I told them they would completely laugh!

Reflection on the WGA assembly

One of the most exciting moments i had ever experience and also thought was fascinating was the acting of the actors that came on Monday March 5Th. the actors were very well actors. What caught my attention was how the can do so many different emotions. there were doing the plays and i thought they were actually true. that's how well the acted it out. i mean i had never in my life seen real actors act like that i mean on T.V i see them all the time but not so vivid like i did that day. i got real excited when they said they were actually going to act it out, i just went there cause i thought they were just gonna talk but never expected them to actually act. also i thing i liked was that students made the scripts for them to act another thing was that these actors didn't even have time to memorise the plays the just did them of course with the scripts on their hands but the thing is that the made it with no mistakes. every thing was so persise. my favorite one was the one of the kid that was homosexual and he had a boyfriend but his father didn't now he was but at the end he comes clean with his dad and tells him that he was gay and that he has to accept him for who he is. I really liked the play because i think that coming clean with your parents like that is something really difficult to do that's why i liked that play a lot. Everything from the acting to the plays where all really nice. Hopefully the come again and soon.

FOUND POEM

suspect charged in Teens slaying

walking threw the park noticing the breeze of the cool air

never expected anything out of the normal. this all took you by surprise.

your there practicing for your schools running test.

your all alone with no one by your side. your almost done with your last lap.

you think your tired but your really use to it.

But the park had changed. Down a worn path and around a bend was where

Chelsea king, a high school senior from nearby Poway, was believed to have been

attacked, killed and buried in a shallow grave. No one new why you were taking so

long. you had never expect it to happen, people where shaken with this terrible news

that no one wanted to believe. Especially in this small town at Northern San Diego.

to my astonishment this could happen to anyone but you have to be really careful.

Everybody was hurt no one felt safe. how can a sraight A student cross-country

runner and a french horn player have been killed especially with a guy who has

done this before without no supervision around him and knowing ha would do it again

be let lose like that. people like that shouldnt be able to go out without someone

by its side. things like that should be taken care of. Poor girl lost her life.

But she may be reasting in peace but she will never be forgotten by her friends and

family. Among the gated enclaves anger and fear over killing. LOS ANGELES TIMES thursday, March 4, 2010 A1-A16

LITERARY TREASURE

Sonnet XXX
Edna St. Vincent Millay
Love is not all: It is not meat nor drink
Nor slumber nor a roof against the rain,
Nor yet a floating spar to men that sink
and rise and sink and rise and sink again.
Love cannot fill the thickened lung with breath
Nor clean the blood, nor set the fractured bone;
Yet many a man is making friends with death
even as I speak, for lack of love alone.
It well may be that in a difficult hour,
pinned down by need and moaning for release
or nagged by want past resolution's power,
I might be driven to sell your love for peace,
Or trade the memory of this night for food.
It may well be. I do not think I would.

What I think about this poem is that it’s something real deep. Everything it says its true. Most people think that getting in love can cure the lonely nights; my thought is that love should just come to you and not looked for I also think love should be valued and the thing is that many people don’t know how to love. That’s really too bad because my thought is that love is essential. I have never been in love before. Well I thought I was, but I just realized it was an obsession that’s all. To be honest my philosophy on dating is not that good because guys come and they go and even if they don’t come they still have to go. That sometimes just encourages to just chill and wait until I find that special someone to come to my life. This poem is such a good example for people that do this often. Well love is always a good thing but sometime it may hurt you. But in reality people can’t live with it and can’t live without it. Like I say I have never fallen in love but when I do hopefully it goes good because I don’t want to end up with a broken heart. This poem is a great example of true love although it’s described as love isn’t a thing you could just feel when your hurt. It’s something way more powerful. I also think what its trying to say that love someone but with expectations. I really believe that because sometimes love gets out of hand and that’s when the relationship is done. That’s why I choose this interesting poem I just love the way she expresses herself about this poem. My thought is that hopefully I could write an important poem when I grow up that has an interesting meaning and also that someone could give the poem to someone they love. I really thought the poem was fascinating.

EXPOSITORY ESSAY

The thing that thrived me to writing about what am going to write about, was because I got real interested of all the things the leaders use to do and there cruelties during The First World War. The things they use to do are just real sad, and some are real heart braking too. That’s why I choose to write about the leaders throughout The First World War. Throughout the whole scandal that was made were a lot of leaders, many of the leaders never seemed to have good ideologies, and that made the lives of people a little more complicated. One of the leaders that did a great impact and ruined peoples lives were Hitler of course, also Mussolini these leaders had all sorts of promises that people seemed to believe, that’s why people started to fallow these unfair men. Hitler was known as a Nazi his ideology was that the nation or the people were supposed to have blue eyes and light skin. The funny thing is that this guy had none of these characteristics. In the 1930s, Adolf Hitler and the Nazi party brought a lot of hopes to Germans which going through some real rough times because of the Great Depression. One of Hitler’s darkest promises was always a message aimed particularly to Jews. Hitler started with his plans in November 1923 he was a German army veteran and leader of an extremist party, although he tried to fallow Mussolini’s example by starting a small-scale coup which failed and soon was in jail. Although his plans didn’t work as he expected he proved that the plan he had could not be ignored. But within a decade he came up with a bid for power. This time his plan was made by legal means. The rise of Hitler’s powers bring so much confusing questions such as why would Germany which had a democratic government in the 1920s, just out of no where become a totalitarian state in the 1930s? And how could a man that talked about hate and many other bad disgusting ideas win the trust of so many Germans? Many to this day ask themselves these questions. Hitler did so many things that people wont forget. One of the nightmares they wont forget and is in history was “The Night of Broken Glass” which was on November 9th,1938 and into the next day, Germans decided it would be a great thing to smash the windows of Jewish homes and businesses, they also looted Jewish shops and burned synagogues. Many Jewish were beaten and dragged out of their homes. The thing was that the Nazi government allowed these horrible things to happen. Not only they allowed them to do that but they made the Jewish to pay for all the damage the Germans did. These things made an impact throughout the country. The thing that I don’t seem to get is how did people allowed these things to happened and there wasn’t only a couple of dictators their were a lot the ones that made a lot of unfair laws. Hitler was known as man that didn’t have a heart but he wasn’t the only one, their was Mussolini. Mussolini was a dictator too but he was an Italian leader. Benito Mussolini arose his power in the 1920s. Another leader that promised glory and stability to Italy. This inspired people to fallow his thoughts. Mussolini was a son of a socialist blacksmith and a teacher, although Mussolini was a socialist in his youth. Things changed during the war he started to reject socialism. For a more intense nationalism or so he thought it was. In 1919, he started to organize veterans and other discontented Italians into the fascist party. Throughout the time this fascist party made a bid for power in 1922 in a rally of Naples they announced their intentions to go to Rome to make changes. That’s when the March on Rome came along. A lot of fascist went to Rome. Fearing civil war, that’s why King Victor Emmanuel III asked Mussolini to be part of the government as prime minister. That was when Mussolini started his plan that supposedly was going to bring glory and stability. Many men were urged to be strong and selfless. All for fighting in the glory of Italy. Women were pushed out of their jobs just so they would stay home and have kids. If women had up to 14 kids they would receive a medal price. Of course this came in handy because automatically these kids would go in to the fascist party. They would teach them to be strong and also taught them to obey strict military discipline. Mussolini made a lot of laws that other people may or may not want to fallow but they had to. Sometimes life is unfair but in those times their was no one to say no because of fear. The First World War had a great impact around the world. Many people lost their loved ones and lost their homes to I just think that all the things that were made were unfair but the good thing was that it eventually it all came to an end. That’s why I decided to write about the two dictators that made peoples life’s miserable.

NARRATIVE WITH SONG LYRICS

Through out my life I have experienced a lot of things. I’m not saying their bad things but there not good either. Everyone goes through the stage of love. Well at lease I thought I was. Many people say love stinks and sometimes I may believe it does. But my real thought about it is that love is something beautiful that eventually fades of. I also think love should be experienced not just felt. The thing is that some say its luck and some just fall in love to cure their wounds. In that case I once fell in love. I meet this guy who at first heated him. He would come everyday to my house and he would come because he said he liked me. Well I felt a little bad because I wouldn’t pay any attention to him. But after a while I started to have these strong feelings towards him. I started to actually like him. But the thing was that he was just trying to like someone to get his girlfriend out his mind. A girl he had been with for about two years or so. I was aware of what was happening and my sister had told me not to fall in love or so I thought was love. I started to sustain myself from a lot of things like hugging or kissing, one of the things that thrived me to liking him even more was that he was really sweet. Although he was immature I guess around me he wasn’t. he would sometimes leave his friends just to be with me and so I started looking at all those things and I liked the feeling of it, that’s was when I realized that I really liked him so he kept on coming to my house almost everyday. This adventure doesn’t only have nice loving parts it also has a lot of crying. I guess that’s a part of my life that I do regret. That’s why I chose a song that I can really relate to because the guy talks about someone that he loved but that person only looked at it as a friend. I guess that was what happened to me. The song I chose has a lot of meaning to me. I listen to a lot of underground hip pop and I just get really passionate about the words they say. I mean everything they say has a meaning. That was what was happening to me the whole I like you thing was a total fake I remember telling my sister to ask him what was going to happen between us. His answer was always "oh yeah I’m going to ask her out but I don’t know when". I started getting excited because I really liked him. I started realizing that he stopped coming to my house and I would get so sad. The thing was that when I actually thought I was deeply in love with him that was when I got a big slap in the face. He started coming but it wasn’t the same anymore. He would still kiss me cause I guess in his mind I was kind of going out with him but without asking me. That made me real sad I remember that one day he came. Because something that he had was that he would always stop by even if he wasn’t allowed to and that day he was trying to prove something I guess the idea that he didn’t want to be with me and he knocks the door and when I stepped outside all I saw was his neck full of hickey’s and well I acted like didn’t care but deep inside I did. There were so many things that guy did to me. The thing is that I now I no longer like him or even love him the guy lives right around the corner from where I live so I always have to remember him. One day I was really upset and so my sister started to put this song named HALO and once I herd that song I just started crying I was trying to figure out why I was crying but I guess I was just fed up with everything that was happening and also the thought that I wanted to be with someone that didn’t and my mom and sisters were their and they saw me crying with such pain that my mom and sisters started to cry. That’s why this song reminds me so much about that period of time that I regret and throughout the time my heart healed.

he said that he still wants a friendship
he cant live his life without me as a friend
I cant figure out why I'd give a damn to what he wants
I don't understand the now before the then
Most of this garbage I write
That these people seem to like
Is about you
And how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you
I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what i showed you
How you could leave it

And everyone in my life would mistake it as love
Everyone in my life would mistake it as love
Everyone in my life would mistake it as love

Getting in a million memories just to forget him
The difficulty in keeping emotions controlled
Cookies for the road
Took me by the soul
Hunger for the drama
Hunger for the nurture
Gonna take it further
The hurt feels like murder.

I got an idea
You should get a tattoo that says warning
That's all, just a warning
So the potential victim
Can take a left and safe breath
And avoid you
Sober and upset in the morning
I wanna scream **** you Lucy

Well I took out some word cause the song is for a girl
But this song made me forget him and for good.
That’s why I chose this song.
ATMOSPHERE **** YOU LUCY.